Happy 2 year Anniversary with Jesus my love !! Happy for you not so happy for us who are patiently waiting to be with you and Jesus!

I think of things now that barely crossed my mind when Jeff was here. I wake up in the morning and miss my daily note from him. I miss that big contagious smile he always had on his face. I miss the way we laughed until we cried together. I miss the way he could know what kind of mood I was in by just looking at me. I miss the way he looked at me from across the room. I miss the way he met my needs even before I knew what I needed. I miss the way he emptied the dishwasher for me because he knew I hated that job. I miss the way he called me to tell me how he couldn’t wait to see me at lunch. I miss the way he hugged me from behind at the stove. I miss how he could make me laugh when I was mad at him. I miss how he called me Hot Mamma! Haha

I miss watching him love his children and his grand babies, nieces and nephews and extended family. I miss how he got up every morning at the break of dawn and I could hear the pages of his Bible being turned. I miss hearing how he loved and adored me. I miss him cheering me on when I was doing something for the first time. I miss his corny jokes. I miss him leading me to Jesus. Always leading me to the feet of Jesus. More than anything I miss his sweet powerful prayers. I miss…. well you get the picture.

Thank you Jesus for the promise of a reunion one day with the man that you blessed me with beyond my wildest dreams. May I spend the rest of my days longing to be with you Lord as much as I long to be with Jeff.

Happy New Year my friends. Thank you for allowing me to share my life with you on these pages. The suffering, joy, tears and the laughter.

It’s all in God’s great plan!!

The Lord has established HIS throne in heaven, and HIS kingdom rules over all. Psalms 103:19

Happy 2 year Anniversary with Jesus my love !! Happy for you not so happy for us who are patiently waiting to be with you and Jesus!

I think of things now that barely crossed my mind when Jeff was here. I wake up in the morning and miss my daily note from him. I miss that big contagious smile he always had on his face. I miss the way we laughed until we cried together. I miss the way he could know what kind of mood I was in by just looking at me. I miss the way he looked at me from across the room. I miss the way he met my needs even before I knew what I needed. I miss the way he emptied the dishwasher for me because he knew I hated that job. I miss the way he called me to tell me how he couldn’t wait to see me at lunch. I miss the way he hugged me from behind at the stove. I miss how he could make me laugh when I was mad at him. I miss how he called me Hot Mamma! Haha

I miss watching him love his children and his grand babies, nieces and nephews and extended family. I miss how he got up every morning at the break of dawn and I could hear the pages of his Bible being turned. I miss hearing how he loved and adored me. I miss him cheering me on when I was doing something for the first time. I miss his corny jokes. I miss him leading me to Jesus. Always leading me to the feet of Jesus. More than anything I miss his sweet powerful prayers. I miss…. well you get the picture.

Thank you Jesus for the promise of a reunion one day with the man that you blessed me with beyond my wildest dreams. May I spend the rest of my days longing to be with you Lord as much as I long to be with Jeff.

Happy New Year my friends. Thank you for allowing me to share my life with you on these pages. The suffering, joy, tears and the laughter.

It’s all in God’s great plan!!

The Lord has established HIS throne in heaven, and HIS kingdom rules over all. Psalms 103:19

 

“Further and further my heart moves away from the shore
Whatever it looks like, whatever may come I am Yours.” This is a chorus from a song that I love.

My eyes are now focused on heaven like never before. My heart moves further and further from the things of this life to the things of heaven for reasons I guess you know.

God has taught me many things in the last 23 months but the most important being to keep my eyes totally fixed on JESUS and he will guide and care for me. He will show me beauty in things. He will not leave me.

Still a lot of days I ask myself do I believe God’s promises to me? Can I really see beauty after all the suffering? Do I believe God is good no matter what? At this moment in my life I can say “YES!” but I have pondered this a lot lately. Like really pondered. When I hear someone say “ God is good I wonder to myself but would HE be good if the cancer didn’t go away? Would HE be good if the baby didn’t live? Would HE be good if the job didn’t work out? We are so quick to praise Jesus when everything is going our way, but will we praise Jesus when things don’t? Can we be thankful in the middle of the storm of life?

I can tell you that this process has not been an easy one for me. This pondering for me is one of the many reasons I will spend the rest of the days of my life trying to help others understand the principle of praising the ONE that created us no matter our circumstance.

Here are some Thanksgiving words for you to hold on to …

 

“ Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.” Revelation 22:12-13

 

I pray that as we all sit with the ones God has given us to love and be loved by this Thanksgiving that we would love one another like our Jesus loves us. That no matter our circumstance that we would open our eyes to the beauty of things.

Only see beauty, only see Jesus!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Honey, God spoke to me so clearly this morning and I gotta tell you about it.” When Jeff spoke these words in our marriage my heart always stopped. It meant that change was coming. Jeff spent a great deal of time at the feet of Jesus so when he spoke these words I knew something was about to change. Sometimes I was excited and sometimes I braced myself. Here is the deal though, no matter what the circumstance was I always came to the same conclusion “Jeff wherever you go I go!”

Now, don’t put me too high on a pedestal just yet. Haha A lot of times I fought him on what God was telling him to do and it took me a minute or a day, or a week, and sometimes a month to get on board with whatever it was. In the end Jeff knew that I was going along side of him no matter what. Even when I didn’t see things like he saw it. I still went with him. He was my husband and I knew that he would lead me and keep me safe. I knew that he loved and adored me and wanted only good for my life. I sit often and think about how abundantly blessed I was to have him love me.

So, this weekend I was sitting in a crowded airport watching the people and all of the sudden I heard God ask me “ Sherry are you willing to follow me anywhere like you did Jeff? ” “Even when you don’t understand where you are going?” “Even in the midst of grief and suffering?”

My answer to God’s question was “YES LORD!”

I am still trying to figure out how to live my life without the love of my life. I don’t know what this life holds for me, but I do know this, I will awaken every morning and pray that I will make a difference in the life of another person. That I will show someone how to look to Jesus for joy and contentment no matter their circumstance. I will remember from my husband’s example that God leads me just like HE led him. God has a purpose for me, and I must look to HIM every second of every day to fulfill that purpose.

I pray that as you read this that when you are done you would fold your hands in your lap and bow your head and Ask the ONE that created you to show you your purpose in this life. I pray that we would all let go of the things of this world that don’t matter. That we would all get up from folded hands and bowed heads and make a difference in the life of another person today. We only get one life here on earth. I  pray I don’t miss a minute of it.

My prayer is that you don’t miss a minute of your life either!!

“Today I will begin to exalt you in the eyes of all Israel, so they may know that I am with you as I was with Moses.” Joshua 3:7

Have you ever witnessed a grown woman throwing a tantrum? I mean like a full blown stomping her feet tantrum? You know the kind where tears come faster than they can be wiped away, and screams are from the very inner of her being.

Well let me tell you, if you had been on Bardstown Road last week you might have seen one. I actually witnessed the whole thing!! It was unbelievable! I know every detail because the woman throwing the tantrum was me.

I had taken my car into our mechanic because my check engine light had come on the night before. Our mechanic and friend reset my light and assured me that everything was fine with my car. I literally was in and out in 10 minutes.

Then it happened as I pulled out of the lot. Tears just began to flow and the tantrum started.

I just screamed at God “ I WANT MY HUSBAND BACK! I AM TIRED OF OTHERS TAKING CARE OF ME.” I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS WITHOUT JEFF! HOW COULD YOU HAVE LET THIS HAPPEN???” and on and on it went. All the way home. I would like to say that was the end but I ranted to God all night long. Grief is hard, and ugly and happens at the weirdest times.

The next morning I opened my eyes and the first thing I did was smile and say to God.. “Ummm, God I am really sorry I yelled at you all day yesterday, and you know that I did not mean all of those things I said.” “However I did mean some of what I said!” I laughed as I said those words to God because I am very aware that HE created me and he knows my every thought before I even think about speaking it.

I miss Jeff terribly and I really did not want to spend the rest of my life without him. Guess, I just need to voice that every once in awhile. Haha

I then began to thank God my Father for all of the people HE put in our life so many years ago that love Jeff and me. The people that help me with whatever I need, whenever I need it. Yes, even car repairs!!

An amazing, caring and loving God to show me so much love through HIS people.

Grief is hard and it makes people uncomfortable. Sometimes people don’t know what to do with people who are grieving. Its messy. You probably only see the Sherry that is out smiling and living life. God does allow me to do that. I am grateful that I am bent towards seeing the beauty in things. I will scratch and claw to choose joy, however you don’t see the 2 hours that morning that I spent with the Bible in my lap begging for relief from the pain.

Jesus is giving me the strength and endurance I need every day. HE goes before me and prepares the way! I am HIS all the days of my life!

I consider that our present sufferings are

Not worth comparing with the glory that will

Be revealed in us.

Romans 8:18

Glory is coming!!