I was sitting at a stop light the other day and just burst into tears. I just all of the sudden had this thought… “Like I am so much stronger that I ever thought I could be. “Anything I face today is no match for watching the love of my life take his last breath here on earth. As I look back on that moment I just thought to myself” but at that moment of my worst nightmare Jeff got to see the face of Jesus, a face that he could not wait to see. “
I cannot believe that it has been 3 years this New Years Eve that my sweet man went to be with Jesus. I think I miss him more and more every day. Time does not heal all wounds but we learn how to take the next breath again and again.
I have a note that Jeff wrote me framed on my desk and it says “ Love you honey, cant wait to see your beautiful face again!” I am holding him to that promise. I cant wait either!!
This year for me has been full of many changes. Its funny how the changes of life just keep coming, even when we have had enough.
Jesus has taught me so many things this year, but this scripture has had great meaning for me. In 1Kings 19:7 the angel of the Lord says to Elijah “ get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.”
You see God knew that the journey for Elijah would be too much for him so he cared for him and told him what he needed to do to have strength to carry him forward.
God does the same for me. God knows that this journey is too much for me, so he goes before me in everything and as I seek HIS face he will make sure I have strength for the journey He has set before me.
Wow what a beautiful thing to cling to this New Year!!